Live to work or work to live?

As I was reading my friend’s blog today, I realized that I’ve been neglecting my tumblr account for ages now. I guess school life caught up with me and instead of posting some some-what-insightful things on my tumblr, I’ve been studying like a nerd. Well not that I even have the time to ramble right now seeing as I have test after test coming up this week (that I’m so screwed for), I thought I would squeeze some kind of post out right now. So let’s see… Life has been pretty great. That’s really all I got at the moment. Maybe I should come back in an hour and see if I can think of anything else to write that may enrich someone else’s day… 

Wondering if you’re going to find your person? I hear you.

I’m learning Japanese.

I’m learning Spanish.

I’ve made it to the 3 week mark with my guy.

I’m feeling pretty accomplished. 

As this summer comes to a close I have to look back and ask how in the world I ended up where I am right now.  Don’t get me wrong. It’s been a fantastic summer but if I put myself back in my own shoes from the beginning of the summer I would never have for seen anything that’s going on at this very moment.  For one, I made a lot of new friends and reacquainted myself with old ones.  It’s been a blast getting to just hang out during the weeknights on a patio or party it up wild child style during the weekends.  I definitely can’t forget to mention those great overnight trips and house BBQs I’ve been to.  I definitely can’t complain about my summer. It’s been SUPER DUPER FANTASTICALLY AWESOME.  What really blows my mind is the fact that my summer fling has turned into something more.  I started off the summer in one relationship and I’m ending it with another.  We’re taking it slow and he does live in a different city but he’s not so far that we can’t visit each other.  My M.O. in a relationship has always been to go super-fast so this time around, I’m taking it slow. Although we have been taking it slow since we met back in June but hey, I’m really liking it.  I think the biggest shocker to this one is my parents actually like him. Haha. My mom actually encouraged me to see where this relationship could go. Which is crazy cause usually they have bad things to say about the guys I bring home.  I really hope this relationship lasts more than 2 weeks. Gotta beat my own record you know? Plus I’ve never really done a “long distance” relationship before but I’m excited to see where this goes. All in all, summer’s just been full of surprises and I like how I’m starting off the school year. 

Not finding my happy place and I don’t know how to get it back.

So life has been quite busy lately. Work wise, family wise and social wise. Kind of crazy with the usual ups and downs but I feel like it’s starting to die down. Actually that’s a lie. It’s still pretty hectic but the intensity of it all varies from week to week. So anyways I’ve got to say work wise I’ve been getting this pretty silly questions that makes me face palm myself multiple times a day. Yes, I probably have a permanent red mark the shape of my hand smack dab in the middle of my face. Seriously, some people need to really rethink their 5-year plan. Family wise it’s back to the usual fight over silly things. This is most probably why I try to spend the least amount of time at home. And the very few times I am at home, I always seem to get into trouble. How ridiculous. Social wise it’s been quite interesting. Although I’ve got to say that I learned boys are super sensitive, stupid at times and hard to read at other times. I’m just totally lost at this point. And it super sucks that F is currently unreachable. Oh well. I’ll just muddle through it on my own. Or maybe just be blunt and talk to S since he’s confusing me to no end.

Other personal dilemmas:
-I really want to buy a new purse.
-I seriously need to stop drinking. I would save so much money.
-I really want a new pair of shoes.
-I really should start working out. HAHAHA like I would ever be inclined to do that.
-I should really get off tumblr and go to bed.

NIGHT!

I celebrated my birthday last night with the usual dinner and club and it was one of the best birthdays ever!  I was so surprised that so many people came out for my party - it made me feel sooooo loved. :) Best funny moments - being accidentally dropped in the middle of a street, watching my drunken friends make out with everyone and being carried around the club so I wouldn’t have to walk.  VIP booths are the best inventions EVER, surprise birthday cakes make the night that much more special, foot massages after a long night of dancing are amazing and all the love my friends showed me was the best present a person could ask for.  Words cannot express how lucky I am.  <3 <3 <3

Things are looking up again. :)

In the past week a lot has happened  Even though I know I did the right thing, I’m now stuck dealing with the consequences. Questions with no real answers or simple solutions. It’s hard to decide what to do when you have no clue on how the other party is feeling.  Do you contact them to tell them you’re still there for them or wait until they reach out to you to know that they’re ready to move on and build something new with you.  You want everything to be right again, or back to normal as possible but you don’t know how to make it happen.  It’s difficult and I only hope that I’m lucky enough to receive what I’m hoping for.