Just had jaw surgery done.  Healing has been trying but the fam has been super supportive (especially my mom - she just said the nicest thing to me making this whole thing worth it). Now I’m making a list of all the food I’m going to devour when I can finally eat again. I am open to suggestions.

Love and heartbreak are tricky things. Heartbreak feels like the worst thing in the world and it makes you hate love just a little bit more.  Even worse when it blind sides you.  Everything is going well one minute and BAM the next minute everything is falling apart.  Girls and boys, as much as it’s a part of growing up and maturing, it FREAKING sucks big time.  

And what is it with this time period of “when it’s appropriate” to fall in love with someone? There’s not such thing.  It’s based off the quality of time you spend with that one person.  You could fall in love with someone after just two weeks of knowing someone depending on the frequency of seeing each other and the quality of the time.  Of course that feeling of love could be major infatuation but if you label it as love, then don’t let ppl tell you differently.  Everyone has a different definition of love so who’s to judge if you’re in love or not.

“Love is like when you absolutely can’t live without someone.  You’re miserable all the time knowing the other person is not part of your life.”
-K

Sometime it takes something major to test your feelings and makes you realize that you really do love that person.  Sometimes you figure it out too late. Lesson - never hold back.  Just give everything your all.  Don’t be afraid of what might or might not happen. If you live like that, you’ll always regret the missed opportunity and let the good things pass you by. 

I think the hardest break ups are the break ups where you still love each other.  The “I hate your guts” break ups are so much easier.  You never want to see them again and you cut all ties.  But what do you do when you break up are you’re still in love with each other? You just couldn’t overcome the obstacle and loving each other just wasn’t enough.  What is appropriate? It is all very difficult and energy consuming.  Once thing for certain is do not wait for each other.  If either of you find someone new, go for it. Of course it will be hard, but you both need to live your lives without anyone or anything holding you back.  If you truly love the person, you will let them go (even though selfishly - guilty as charged - you never want them to find anyone other than you.)  Just don’t let the hope of something happening in the future hold you back.

With all that being said, K, I don’t think our story is over.  Maybe we’re taking a hiatus or something. Like we always say, things happen for a reason.

I was talking to my friend J the other day and you know what’s worse than being friend zoned? Being family zoned.  How much would it such if your crush told you “Oh I’m really sorry but I see you as a brother/sister/cousin/whatever else.”  Being family zoned means you have absolutely ZERO percent chance of ever being with that person. At least with the friend zone you have a slight possibility of getting into the relationship zone later on down the road. So when your crush friend zones you, be happy that you’re not being family zoned. And that my friends, is my life lesson to you for the month. 

People who never respond to messages/texts/emails in a timely fashion.  Or they start a conversation (text/messaging/etc) and they either leave without saying goodbye or just stop responding. It’s only common courtesy to properly end the conversation you started.

I have a hard time letting go.

The other day I was talking to my friend A and we started discussing our zodiac signs and if the general personality types actually describe us.  After a long debate, we still can’t decide if he’s a Pisces or an Aquarius (don’t ask cause I’m still kind of confused myself) but I know for sure I’m a Gemini. LOL So after much online surfing, I’ve come to the conclusion that yes, the personality traits of my sign actually reflect my actual personality. It’s kind of interesting.

Gemini people are many sided, quick both in the mind and physically. They are brimming with energy and vitality, they are clever with words. They are also extremely independent.

I would say yes to the quick. Well maybe not so much physically (what’s a gym?) but definitely in the mind. Or so I’d like to think. I’m always energetic and my mom does say I have a pretty tongue. And independence is my middle name. (Not actually, but you get my drift.)

They are intelligent and very adaptable to every situation and every person. Gemini are curious and always want to know what’s going on in the world around them. They are not one to sit back and watch the world go by, they want to be involved.

I agree 100% with this.  I love new environments and I’m a quick learner.  When I’m at home on a “R and R” day, I feel like I wasted the day away cause I wasn’t out doing something. I can’t just let life pass me by.  When an opportunity presents itself, whether it’s work, school or love, I go for it with everything I’ve got.  Every experience you live through, if it’s good or bad, shapes you and helps you become a better person (or at least somewhat wiser.) And yes, I’m always curious. Hopefully curiosity does not kill this cat. 

Gemini make very interesting and exciting friends… they are the ultimate social butterfly. They like to leave their mark on everyone they meet. They are very flighty and will disappear for a long time as they meet new friends and explore new places. But when they come back, they will have new thoughts, opinions and interesting things to share and ideas to teach… Gemini can talk and talk, but they have interesting things to say, their talk is not mindless babble. They have interesting opinions and thoughts on things and are not afraid to speak their mind. They are always in the know and are the one to see for the latest juicy gossip. If you need any advice, Gemini is the one to ask.

Boy, do I ever talk a lot.  I hope it’s about interesting things.  And I definitely am not shy about letting you know what is on my mind.  I would definitely consider myself a social butterfly, although maybe in this case it’s “too much of a good thing?” Just like the quote pointed out, I tend to disappear and meet new people, so yes I’m flighty (maybe I should have been born as a bird?). I noticed this year a lot of my groups of friends have been transitory so I don’t actually have one anchor group.  It can get a little lonely.  Ironic isn’t it?

Gemini’s can have feeling of discouragement and moodiness although they never allow this to be seen by anyone but heir closest friends or family. Gemini usually want everyone to think that they are always happy and doing wonderfully and stress never affects them.

 100% true. I always want to make sure everyone around me is happy even when I’m not.

Lacking perseverance, Gemini easily goes off topic to explore another thought or idea.  

I don’t know if I agree with this.  I definitely persevere where it counts, like school and work and such, but yes, I do tend to wander through countless topics when having a chit chat with my friends.

Gemini are superficial, they will form opinions on matter without diving into them and exploring them fully. This can lead them into thinking they know everything, which they usually do but their mind is too busy to be concerned with fine details.  

I actually laughed so hard when I read this. Yes, I would consider myself superficial to a certain extend. Yes, I do judge once in a while.  Ok, make that often, but I never judge my friends (maybe that’s why everyone always comes to me for advice). Usually, I just judge strangers. Haha, true, I’m always right. :P Just kidding. I think that I give sound advice to my friends when it comes to relationships and what not.  My friends seem happier once they follow my words of wisdom (even if they go through a low period at first.  In the long run, it works out).  If only I could follow my own advice.  Easier said than done is the saying right?  

Routine and boredom are Gemini’s biggest fears. Gemini would rather be naive then know the depressing truth, they do not want anything putting a damper on their freedom or positive energy. 

I DREAD boredom and routine.  Can’t stand them. I like having something new to do every day. Although I’d rather know the depressing truth than be naive. Of course I wouldn’t want anything to dampen my positive energy or freedom. But isn’t it better to know the truth than be in the dark? 

So that about sums me up. A true Gemini through and through I guess.  Kind of neat how that happens no? Then it makes me think about names.  How names seem to have a certain personality attached to them. Magic I tell you. :)

So it’s the new year. A new year for a whole lot of things to happen.  A new year for a whole bunch of things to repeat themselves.  I always find it so bizarre how long a year seems when you’re looking back, trying to figure out and remember all the details.  I mean, January 2012 seems like eons ago.  All I can say is thank goodness for pictures or else I would never remember what goes on in my life. Hahaha.  Looking forward, I would like to say that I have new years resolutions - you know the typical be a better person, go to the gym, have a meaningful relationship, maybe adopt another pet - but let’s face it, I’m never going to stick to them. So why set myself up for disappointment? Don’t make any resolutions and everything that happens will be awesome and not something you ever expected. :) 

It was also kind of different this new years eve.  I spent it with my family, which I haven’t done in years.  I won’t lie, I was disappointed at first because I was scheduled to go to a house party, but like my parents say, everything works out for a reason.  Maybe this is a sign that 2013 will be awesome. Anyways, we ended up watching the Hobbit, so the countdown just quietly passed me by.  

But then I was thinking about it.  Why can’t you celebrate the new year a little late? So what if there’s not a million other people celebrating at the same time? You can still go out, have fun, drink and wear all the new years bling (seeing as it’s now discounted lol). And that’s how I got my brilliant plan to celebrate on Friday! Gather everyone who missed out cause they were sick (and there was an unbelievable amount of sick people. Crazy) and go out for drinks and celebrate! No crowds, no drunk people stumbling all over the place and puking. It’s a pretty sweet deal.

So happy new years everyone! I hope that the coming year will make us wiser, happier and all the other qualities that would make us a better person.  Don’t repeat your past mistakes, but don’t be afraid to make new ones.  Just remember, work hard, play harder! 

I hate flaky people with a passion. I hate it even more when they ditch you for “better plans”. Don’t freaking make plans if you don’t plan on keeping them. I especially hate flakey people who cancel after going on and on and on about how they want you in their life and blah blah blah. How you would like it if I called at the 11th hour saying I’m not hanging out with you cause I have plans? And this is AFTER the fact that we agreed to hang out?

Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. Fool me three times, get ready to get your baby maker disassembled.

I put up with a lot of crap but I have a line. You cross it, you’re done. It takes a lot to get me mad but once I am, don’t bother coming back around for a second chance.

Usually I don’t rant but flaky people are just my ultimate pet peeve. Followed closely by stupid people (as in people who lack basic common sense) and whiny voices.

Flaky people. I think that’s pretty self explanatory.

So there’s this guy who’s like a bad addiction. You know those addictions like drugs and smoking? it’s bad for you, you see the “roadway straight to horribleness” signs and it can only end terribly unless you quit but you just can’t stop? Yeah. It’s like that. Maybe I’m addicted to the fact that he likes me and needs me way more than I’ll ever need or like him? Whatever it is, it’s not good.