Work hard, play harder.

I celebrated my birthday last night with the usual dinner and club and it was one of the best birthdays ever!  I was so surprised that so many people came out for my party - it made me feel sooooo loved. :) Best funny moments - being accidentally dropped in the middle of a street, watching my drunken friends make out with everyone and being carried around the club so I wouldn’t have to walk.  VIP booths are the best inventions EVER, surprise birthday cakes make the night that much more special, foot massages after a long night of dancing are amazing and all the love my friends showed me was the best present a person could ask for.  Words cannot express how lucky I am.  <3 <3 <3

Things are looking up again. :)

In the past week a lot has happened  Even though I know I did the right thing, I’m now stuck dealing with the consequences. Questions with no real answers or simple solutions. It’s hard to decide what to do when you have no clue on how the other party is feeling.  Do you contact them to tell them you’re still there for them or wait until they reach out to you to know that they’re ready to move on and build something new with you.  You want everything to be right again, or back to normal as possible but you don’t know how to make it happen.  It’s difficult and I only hope that I’m lucky enough to receive what I’m hoping for.

Don’t regret past experiences. Accept them, learn from them and move forward, no matter how much it may hurt. Things like these make you stronger.

J’ai mentionné auparavant que la famille de mon chum est super traditionnelle.  Ils n’apportent jamais les filles à la maison sauf s’ils vont les épouser.  De mon côté, ma famille est vraiment ouverte et on apporte les garçons à la maison pour rencontrer les parents, même s’ils sont seulement des amis.  Comme tu peux voir, les valeurs sont assez différentes entre les deux familles.  Mes parents me demandent pourquoi je ne peux rencontrer sa famille et je leur explique à chaque fois la raison, mais ils continuent de m’énerver avec ces questions.  Ça me donne le mal au coeur parce que oui je veux les rencontrer, mais en même temps je ne veux pas lui pousser trop fort. (Ça n’aide pas que je suis une personne qui analyse tout constamment.)  Je ne veux pas lui mettre dans la situation où il doit choisir entre sa famille et moi. C’est drôle parce que je n’ai jamais imaginé que je rencontrerai ce type de situation dans ma vie.  Je veux que la relation fonctionne, mais en même temps, ce problème avec les parents me donne beaucoup de stresse.  Ben, on va voir ce qui va arriver.  

The other day my boyfriend stumbled upon my tumblr account.  I don’t know why I feel kind of embarrassed about that. I mean, the whole purpose of a tumblr account is to share your thoughts, feelings, likes, dislikes, etc… Guess I’m just kind of weird that way. 

These past few weeks have been a blur. I’m still not too sure what’s going on cause it’s just been freaking amazing.  I’m not sure how I got so lucky. He’s great. Well more than great, he’s pretty darn amazing. So while things have been swell there’s this little problem that I thought I would never encounter - race.  We’re two different races and it seems that later on it’s going to cause some problems. For me it’s kind of weird because I was brought up to have a very open mind about people and things.  Don’t get me wrong, he’s like me, he doesn’t care but it seems that his family may care. Just a bit. Okay, maybe more than a bit. It’s going to be interesting figuring this one out but I’m hopeful. He’s just as ready as me to tackle those obstacles.  I’m starting to develop some high hopes for this one.  I hope I don’t come crashing down in the end.  

I always thought the old fashioned gentleman had faded away, never to return.  But alas, no! There are still guys out there who open car doors for you and walk you to your house when dropping you off and ring the doorbell when picking you up, show up with these little thoughtful surprises and bring flowers for your mother when picking you up for the first date.  He tells you he realized that he liked you when you threw him that little smile from across a crowded table and he doesn’t text to ask you on a date.  He listens to what you have to say and isn’t shy about holding your hand.  AND he’s respectful. SO respectful. Yes ladies, these guys do still exist. :)

The past few months I’ve been pondering the idea of relationships. But more specifically romantic relationships that blossom from a really great friendship. As we all know, the sage advice that everyone gives you is the whole friendship first, relationship later deal. I get it. I really do cause you’ve already established this really amazing friendship and now you’re ready to take it to the next level. They know you like the back of their hand and you’re already two peas in a pod. You know you click with them already. Now here’s the tricky part (for some anyways), actually moving from one zone to another. I’ve been thinking long and hard about this and I believe the most difficult step is to actually over come the fear of the future. You can’t live in the “what if” mind frame. “what if this turns out badly?” or “what if I get annoyed with them?” or “what if I end up hating them?” YOU HAVE TO TAKE RISKS! If you don’t, you’re just letting life pass you by and you’re going to miss all the opportunities it throws at you. If it wasn’t meant to work out it won’t but you can’t live in a moment of stasis. That’s just not the nature of the world. Change is what keeps us going. So take that plunge into the unknown cause it could lead to something fantastic that you never dared dream about.

Tip of the tongue.  That one idea that eludes you. How frustrating.

Oh hey there! it’s been quite a while since I’ve logged onto Tumblr what with school, work and exams.  But anyways, here I am! Life’s been pretty interesting. Met some new people, planned a surprise birthday party, started my placement, and I’m planning a camping trip. Summer is officially right around the corner. This is quite exciting as now I’ll have a social life and I can stay out during all hours of the night. That is the life. Seriously, school can be such a road block when it comes to parties and pub nights and all things super fun. But anyways, I wonder what this summer will bring. I love that no two summers are ever the same. The past couple of years I’ve noticed that I seem to have a distinct group of people I hang with (all the time) and it always changes - never one group for more than a summer. Now that doesn’t mean that I never talk to those people again, but it’s more like we don’t hang out 24/7. Quite interesting it is. HAHA. So this summer I seemed to have befriended a couple nurses, a consultant and a journalist. It’s an awesome group. So now if I get hurt, I’ve got a couple nurses to take care of me lol. I find that so handy. As I always say, it’s who you know, not what you know. Anyways, I’m off to do something social! :D